karma tunnel

"waking up dead"

copyright © 1996 by jane chin

When Jane woke up the next morning, she discovered that she was dead.

At first, she observed her lifeless form from above. Then she realized she could not call awake that heavy mass lying apathetically there, legs spread slightly, hands flung to the side, face slightly furrowed in a frown.

Jane laughed out loud at herself for looking pensive even when nothing could possibly be bothering a corpse. She looked wistfully down, missing the body for the laughter that once came forth.

As an urge to pull away from the empty shell rose, she resisted. She felt sorry for the homeless spirit bound within the flesh encasement. The spirit that grew from a seed planted by somebody else. A tumor that grew as the spirit became stronger, feeding off should-have's and must-do's, its voracious appetite sapping the remaining energies provided by the body.